“I had to lift myself up when I was down, from fucking 9 years old, because I don’t feel like me and my dad ever had a super emotional connection after he got custody of me and my brother, and I didn’t really get that with my mom and my siblings,” he said.įor more on this topic, follow the Hip Hop Observer. Lil Nas X and Billy Ray Cyrus' remix also won the Country Music Association (CMA) Awards collaboration category, CMA Music Event of the Year Lil Nas X is the first out gay man to ever be nominated for a CMA award, and the only openly LGBTQ person to win. “Growing up, I didn’t realize it, but I’ve always been kind of my own hand on my own shoulder,” he said. Shocking New Video But according to the rumors that MTO News has heard, Nas X played up his 'gay' image for clout and fame. Chris Brown Now Looks Like A 'Complete Crackhead'. He continued on to explain that he felt emotionally distant from his family from a young age and had to “lift up.” There have long been rumors around music circles that Lil Nas X is really bisexual - with a preference for women. “ pushing that part of myself in more and more, almost convincing myself that it’s not even actually there.” “Little things like going into an IHOP and hearing one of your family members say ‘look at those faggots’ to two people eating or even just a small ‘boys don’t cry.’ Little shit like living in the hood, not being super into sports, and then having to go outside and pretend that I was.”